This is for all the haters and idiots that have posted on my blog recently. The offensive posts have been deleted, but so you are [b]NOT[/b] mistaken I did not post anything stolen. Some of my posts are from a site that gives you a blog outline that you copy and fill in the details. I will be happy to give the name of the site to whoever tmails me to confirm.
Feeling guilty, so guilty for not making my goal. Aerobic exercise three times a week for the past two weeks. I last ran on Thursday week. I fizzled out. I’ve been tired. I have really great excuses. I set myself back. So guilty.
And remembering the countless desserts consumed on Sunday. Guilt is not a good motivator. I can do better. Must exercise. Want to ride a wave. Brenda is going surfing this weekend. So jealous.
I must make sleeping early an active decision. Melissa’s mum said that she could still catch a second grader. I don’t think I could catch anyone in my state. Does anyone else feel guilty when they dont exercise?
Don’t you just love it when you get synchronicity? It gives me a little chill. I just recently read [b]The Bear went over the Mountain[/b]:http://www.amazon.com/exec/ob..., a story about a bear who finds a manuscript and goes off to the city to become a famous writer. In one scene, the bear’s agent (or whoever) tells him that when speaking with another author the bear should say that he read the other author’s book and that it was good (or something to that effect).
Then I found myself reading this article about [b]“Authors admit faking blurbs on ‘dire’ books”[/b] :http://www.fairness.com/resou... Was anyone surprised? (And although I have enjoyed Isabell Wolff books, I wouldn’t read a book based on her blurbization.)
I’m obsessed with food today. Last week’s goal was to keep a food log. I just had to keep track of what was going in, not even change it. I might have overindulged a wee bit. This week I have to keep the log AND eat sensibly. And I have to keep up the workout schedule. I’m considering changing the workouts next week.
What does eating sensibly entail? It’s pretty simple. There will be nothing from the vending machines and nothing that hasn’t been measured within an inch of its edible life. I need to balance my protein with my fruits and veggies. And I should stop eating when I’m full. Yeah, well, if these actions were as easy as they were simple, I wouldn’t be this fat in the first place.
I have specifics of what amounts of what foods I plan to consume but they’re at home and I haven’t really made a plan yet. (I’m always behind in my weekly planning.) I’m not going for any diet with a name. I plan to keep track of food by calorie and by exchanges. And the balance is pretty similiar to the FDA food pyramid.
As I write, this all sounds rather vague. A little big and overwhelming. But I refuse to just up my water intake. It’s not interesting enough. (Besides, I’m holding this goal back for some time in the future when I need an easy goal to meet.)
Okay, how about this? Keeping daily caloric intake to under 2500. That can be tough. I’ll have to measure out my snacks. My healthy snacks are actually quite full of evil calories. And I’m going to really TRY to balance the veggies and stuff. I’ll put specific numbers on next week. (This week’s reward is a yarn winder.)
Speaking of the reward system, I’m trying to make myself into a rewards whore. It’s pretty tough. For example, I could buy myself that yarn winder at any time for no good reason. So the logic in such rewards is not very strong. In general, the best part of achieving a goal is the satisfaction of achievement. I’m hoping that adding rewards will make achievement a bit more enticing. I’m trying to use things that I wouldn’t get too easily. I’ve been putting off the purchase of the winder for a while because it seems frivolous but as a reward, it seems like a guilt-free purchase. It’s these little rewards for the little goals that I’m having problems with. ‘Cause, you know, the reward should reflect the size of the effort. The big rewards are very easy to come up with.
The current rewards plan:
First reward (for first goal of 3 cardio and 3 weights workouts per week for two weeks): supposed to be a knitting magazine but substituted with new Addi Turbo needles
Second reward (for keeping the food log): um, I actually haven’t figured this out; I’m thinking the magazine again
Third reward (for improving my diet this week): yarn winder
Losing the first 10 pounds (weight not to be mentioned right now): treat myself to a spa visit.
Reaching 150 pounds: going shopping
Reaching 127 pounds (my high school weight): a bikini
See, I’d like to think I’m going to do everything right. I like to think that I know what to do. Make small attainable goals. Be specific. Be concrete. Don’t reward yourself with food. Don’t go on any crazy grapefruit/cabbage diets. Combine resistance training with aerobic exercise. Create a schedule. Don’t use falling off the wagon as an excuse to quit altogether. Don’t forget why you’re going to through all of this.
I know that I want to lose weight for more than societal pressure to be skinny. I want to be in shape to do the activities I enjoy (at the pace I enjoy them). I have lots and lots of clothes that I refuse to get rid of because I’m determined to wear them again. I want to bend over without resting on my fat. I’m trying not to be one of those crazy women who’s ready to starve to be slimmer. It’s all going to work out. You just wait and see.
Where have I been? Why haven’t I been writing? I’ve been fucking busy damn it. :(
For example, yesterday I spent six hours straight in the office (and the ten minutes I ran out to eat at Luigi's bar doesn’t count). Then I went home and slept for eleven hours. I was tired.
And I’ve been exercising. Not a lot but I’ve probably done more in the last week that I had in the previous six months. Plus I get up early in the morning to do it. It’s a crazy idea, especially since I’m a night owl, but I have less than zero motivation after work. The nice bit is that if I go running in the early morning at the park, I can find a parking space. Not simply right away but right next to the trail. And there aren’t a lot of people to dodge.
But I’ve missed writing and my draft entries are piling up like old tires. So here’s to hoping that one will lead to many. And if I’m this far behind in blog writing, how far behind am I in blog reading? :shock:
My girlfriend is pregnant and she keeps on complaining about how little her boyfriend does to actually help her around the house and with chores. So that got us thinking about what it would be like if guys had babies?
How would the world be different if men had babies?
Would child care and maternity leave be different?
Do you think that the roles in the home would change if men had babies?
Give me your opinions on what you think would change if men had babies. Those are just some of the questions that came up. :Dm
After commenting on Cyberpal's blog:http://cyberpal.tblog.com, yesterday I did wonder about the whole 'Voluptuous vs Thin' arguement. In that discussion nobody made mention of women with very small breast's. I have a few g/friends who have even contemplated surgery to have them enlarged. One of my friends even said her ex used to tell her to make them bigger... sometimes guys make us so uncomfty and ashamed. =(
My view is this: I'm not sure if complaining about them being small or not is good but you need to love what you got. That's the way you were made and you can't do much about it unless you got implants or something (which is a waste of money in my opinion).
I have the opposite 'problem' being that my boobs are big. Almost too big for my body in my opinion. I've learned to accept it though. Some guys prefer small boobs, some prefer bigger. In the end it doesn't really matter. There's a lot worse things that could be 'wrong' with you.
Big boobs, small boobs, medium boobs..... boobs are boobs aren't they? I have learnt to like my boobs, so should all my Sister's out there too.
Today has been a nightmare. Work has been so hectic, my manager is on my case 24/7 and to add to that I haven't prepared for my review which I'm about to take in an hour. Somebody help please! Agh! :(
Just musing and this came up becos one of my girlfriends broke up with her boo over the weekend. There are few things in life that are harder on a person than the time when they realize that the love they have worked so hard at, and spent so much time on, is finally over. For some, this realization is a complete shock and for others, they have seen the writing on the wall for some time now.
I guess for my friend the writing had been on the wall for ages. I never liked the guy, and I know it's easy for me to say that now that they've broken up but it's true! They had been together for about 5yrs on and off, so I can understand why she hung in there for so long, but the question that remains, therefore, is at what point do you really know that it's over?
Breakup signs are often very difficult to spot, primarily because the people involved often do not want to admit that the relationship has failed. And unless something comes along and hits them in the face, telling them it's over; the natural tendency is to try to work through the problems. This happens more so when the couple have been together for a while, like my friend was.
having said all that I feel for her, but under no circumstances should anyone stay in a relationship that is bad for them, just because they feel that being in a relationship, even a bad one, is better than being alone.
After my blog of yesterday, it got me thinking. Why would you be in a relationship that has no definition for 2yrs? I honestly believe that to be able to love someone else, you have to be able to love yourself for who you are.
In life, we may find it easy to allow ourselves to love and accept multitudes of other people, but when it comes to loving ourselves we're not as forgiving. In fact, we can be quite relentless in our pursuit of perfection. So, how then do you learn to put aside all the shoulds and should nots we face, and really begin a love affair with yourself?
The first step is to realize that you are somebody. You're a friend, someone's daughter or son, possibly a lover, an employee or employer, or maybe even someone's spouse. No matter how your role changes, you're still somebody. Nothing will ever change that.
The next step is to take time out to actually love yourself. In romantic relationships it is often said that true love is shown through actions, not words. Learn to apply this to yourself with the following ideas, and you'll be on the road to a lifetime romance, with yourself!
Pretty average day so far, but TGIF!! :D Nothing to blog about today, but I do want to ask a question from anybody who cares to answer. My girl at work, says she's been having an on-off relationship with her best friend for the best part of two years and they are happy the way things are. What I wan to know is do you think that you and your best friend could have sex for 2 years and not have any feelings for each other? I know I dont!!
[b]What to expect this week[/b]: It's a week of fantasy and excess, either a terrible or a wonderful combination, depending upon your point of view. Well, there's no use hiding from the feelings, so why not take some chances in expressing love, reaching for pleasure or pushing the limits of a relationship. Being reasonable is an attractive idea, but if you play it too safe, you can miss an opportunity for some adult fun or cool off a budding romance.
ARIES (March 20April 19) Being easily bored can be a blessing, Aries, since it forces you to break your old social habits. Don't be afraid to go somewhere on your own, even if you don't know anyone there. Your outgoing personality makes it easy for you to connect with new people now.
TAURUS (April 20May 20) Your appetites can be strong this week. Whether it's for food, fun or love, whatever your normal dose is might not seem like enough. But, that might be what it takes to push you out of your comfort zone, which is where you need to go for a better relationship.
GEMINI (May 21June 20) Count on friends or colleagues to help jumpstart your social life this week. Meetings, organizations and parties provide opportunities to bring a spark of romance into your life. It might not burn forever, Gemmie, but should get that old feeling moving again.
CANCER (June 21July 22) If you feel like a person isn't being sincere with you this week, trust the feeling. That's because someone can make a promise that won't be kept. Maybe it's just high hopes that are being expressed, or an exaggeration to get you attention. Listen, but don't buy now.
LEO (July 23August 22) A friend's unrealistic sounding idea might actually turn out to be a good one for you, Leo. Come on, being practical isn't necessarily the best way to romance this week. Stray off your usual path and you might find more stimulating companionship now.
VIRGO (August 23September 22) It's tempting to criticize a friend or colleague for having an unrealistic attitude about relationships. But, being right doesn't necessarily make you any happier. Sometimes, it's better to make mistakes with an open heart than to avoid them with a closed mind.
LIBRA(September 23October 22) Even a person of good taste needs to explore new flavors from time to time. Don't be so careful now, Libra. Maybe you'll look foolish, but it's worth it if you learn something that leads you closer to a relationship that will be exactly what you're looking for.
SCORPIO (October 23November 22) Just because you can see the game that someone else is playing this week, it doesn't mean that you have to call him or her on it. This isn't about shutting up, Scorpio, it's just about picking the right time, place and manner of expressing yourself now.
SAGITTARIUS (November 22December 21) A person who never looked like a romantic prospect to you before can seem like one now. Maybe their situation has changed, but it's more likely that you're seeing this individual differently. Whether this leads to romance or not, take the first step anyway.
CAPRICORN (December 22January 19) Come on, Cappie, don't take yourself too seriously this week. In fact, a light and easygoing attitude makes you much more attractive now. Feeling silly? That's a good thing because it shows that you're willing to let go of control to let in some fun.
AQUARIUS (January 20February 18) Don't wait for the weekend to get sociable. Lunch with a prospective partner is an easy way to get to know one another better. If it pans out, a more serious date is an appropriate follow-up. Give yourselves time to warm up, so take it slow for now.
PISCES (February 19March 19) Your sensitivity is part of what makes you such a beautiful person, Pisces. But this week you might feel criticized by someone who's really on your side. Stay calm and listen before reacting and you might see that there's some useful information for you here.
I was just wondering how people still feel about their first love. Please if you'd like, leave a message about your first love. Would you say that your first love stands out from other relationships? How old were you? How long did it last? Good relationship, bad relationship? Feel free to answer these questions, ask your own, or add something different. Just as long as it has to do with first loves.
Mine still has a place in my heart. Bumped into him this weekend and I was just reminiscing about the good old days. He was such a sweetheart back then and we only broke up because we went to different Universities. He brought back pleasant memories :)
What to expect this week: A Full Moon in Libra, the relationship sign, kicks off an intense week for partnerships of all kinds. With communicator Mercury turning backwards (retrograde), too, this is a time to complete unfinished business. If you're repeating the same story over and over in your head, realize that you're the one who's writing it. The past doesn't have to become the future, if you're willing to try some new ways to play the game of love.
ARIES (March 20April 19) A Full Moon in your house of partnership could bring some issues to a head. Extreme emotions can be unsettling, but might be what it takes to wake you up and shake you up. Learn from the past, but don't relive it. It's time to make a fresh start in relationships.
TAURUS (April 20May 20) Your key planet, Venus, is getting a jolt of electricity from Uranus. This can lead to unexpected connections, perhaps with someone who's far from your usual type. But, exploring new territory is far more useful than sticking to your traditional tastes.
GEMINI (May 21June 20) Yum, yum, the Full Moon falls in your house of romance this week, Gemini. While it's no guarantee of perfect love, it certainly increases your chances for having a good time. Take advantage of it by putting a higher priority on planning than on work now.
CANCER (June 21July 22) This week could be more about questions than answers, Cancer. Instead of making up your mind about a current relationship or deciding how to find your next one, slow down and do some reviewing now. Think of this as a long-term investment in love.
LEO (July 23August 22) Friendship may come before romance now, Leo. So don't push for passion when a relationship is still in its early stages. The heat will come with patience, if it comes at all. Don't run off a potential partner by expecting too much too soon this week.
VIRGO (August 23September 22) You could be ready for a style change, Virgo. Yes, you might feel weird with a different look, but why stick to what's not working? Besides, freshening up your appearance is more than cosmetic. It's about making a fresh start in relationships, as well.
LIBRA(September 23October 22) Libra, your relationship life is up for some major changes this week. This is definitely a time to take the initiative. It's better to try and fail now than to protect yourself by not taking any chances. That's because if you keep trying, you're sure to find success.
SCORPIO (October 23November 22) Good news from an unexpected source could unlock a mystery from your relationship past. It could simply be a light bulb going off in mind that helps you let go of an idea that's been keeping you from having the happiness and love that you deserve.
SAGITTARIUS (November 22December 21) Friends, colleagues or classmates could be the key to your social life this week, Sagittarius. If one suggests you join him or her at an event that's not your style, don't say no. Even if you don't fit in at first, it won't take long for you to find your place ... and like it.
CAPRICORN (December 22January 19) It's all about compromise this week, Capricorn. Even when you think that you're the boss, you'll find out that you've got to meet people halfway. But, this is a good lesson for relationships, if you can understand that when no one comes out on top that both people win.
AQUARIUS (January 20February 18) If you've felt out of step in the past, you should be right at home this week. People who never understood you are finally coming around to get who you are. Of course, since you like being different, you might want to make some changes, just to keep it interesting.
PISCES (February 19March 19) It's all about communication this week, Pisces. Whatever feelings you have need to be shared, if they're going to help fuel a better relationship life. Don't be embarrassed, or project your problems on others, just talk from your heart and it can heal itself.
The Lord is my coder; I shall not crash. He maketh me to use Mac OS X; he leadeth me beside BSD and Linux. He restoreth my file system: he leadeth me in the paths of open source for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of MS, I will fear no Windows: for thou art with me; thy C++ and thy kernel comfort me. Thou preparest a firewall before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my hard drive with mp3s; my disk drives runneth over. Surely stability and efficiency shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will code in the OS of the Lord for ever.
I so don't enjoy being sick :( Came down with a really nasty flu virus a couple nights ago that has just knocked me for a loopno fun at all. Worked all of about 3 hours this morning, before having to take some benylinbut am feeling better though, so hopefully will be back to normal (whatever 'normal' is defined as in my case) by tomorrow. The worst part about the whole thing, though, was on top of battling the flu and feeling like crap, I've spent all of today battling really strong hiccups too. Not a combination I'd recommend.
Just because it's April fool's Day doesn't mean it should taken literally with people acting the fool! Argh!! If someone plays one more prank on me I will swing for them I promise! :evil: Grow up you imbeciles!! :P
One of my pet hates are all these awful ring tones that people have on their mobile phones nowadays. Was on my way into work this morning and I must have heard a medley of 20+ different ringtones which were all diabolical. What's wrong with the simple tones on your phone I ask? Arrgh!! I wish mobiles were banded from ringing and only allowed to vibrate, at least that way you'd get to work without jumping everytime one of thsoe awful things goes off. :roll:
Walking from the station to the office this morning, a peculiarly large number of people appeared to be smiling; almost chuckling to themselves. While this is entirely laudable behaviour, it is enough to make one feel somewhat paranoid.
Was watching the images of the Madrid bombings on TV yesterday and the memorial service held for the relatives. I abhor violence of any kind and my heart goes out to the people left behind. This is in memory of them!
[b]In Memory of Those Who Perished... In Honor of Those Who Persevere... In Support of Those Who Protect... In Praise of the One Who Provides.[/b]
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts. The LORD Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. ------[b]Psalm 46:1-7[/b]
What the hell? I just got a telemarketing call and was put on hold. Right off the start of the call, I was put on hold. I didnt even speak to some underpaid idiot, I just got a voice recording saying that I was on hold and an agent would be with me shortly. What a load of bull!!
Now, the last time I checked, telemarketing calls were an inconvenience in the first place, but to be put on hold so I cant even yell at/hang up on/be snotty to the telemarketers, thats just the worst ever They just spoilt my some what good day. :(
It's been ages since I lasted posted a blog, bad case of writer's block! So I'm just going to write any old thing here today, cos the longer I leave it the longer it will take to post (Logical!) :roll:
So Tuesday was a fun day... I met some more friends in Richmond for early drinks, and hung out with Jen and co again in the evening. I actually got some decent work done at work too.
Oh, so Jen, Davina, Tolu, and Trace all play roller hockey now, apparently. I saw one of their games Tuesday night, and it was pretty sweet. Davina was coaching them, because it apparently was a more "beginner" league game, so what they lacked in skill and finesse they more than made up for in... well, gusto.
Trace is just a monster in the rink; I think she should be called "The Enforcer." Apparently Davina and Tolu (and maybe Jen?) also play in a more advanced league, and Davina plays ice hockey as well.
The best part was watching the roller hockey class that started after their game... Apparently the teacher thought it would be good to line everyone up against one side of the arena, and then have them skate full-bore towards the opposite side to practice their "hockey stopping" skills.
The result was absolutely hilarious! Just imagine about 25 people skating at top speed at a wall and then just totally wiping out. People were crashing right into the opposite side, into each other, getting flipped and tossed... Then the teacher was like "okay, do it again!" I was laughing so hard I was almost crying! :lol:
That night we all went out to dinner at De'Angelo's in Richmond Town Center, which is a nice italian kind of place. We went back to Tolu's place and wound up chilling for a couple hours, then I took off back to my crib for some sleep.
Today, well just working. Not much to report, will be just me, my hot water bottle and a warm glass of milk then bed. I'm tired now, so I'm off to have a soak and a glass of wine. Cheerio :D
[i]I was just sitting here, reading blogs, when I suddenly got a stabbing pain in my right temple. It only lasted a second or two before going down to just a slight ache, but it still worries me a bit. Wtf?? :shock:
Just want to sound off: I got a particularly sleazy piece of junk mail today. It was a letter from VeriSign, telling me that my domain name is about to expire, and asking me to send 'em my credit card number to renew it for another year. Which seems reasonable, until you realize that my domain name isn't registered with VeriSign. It's registered with Your-Site, which is a reseller for a different organization entirely. So VeriSign wanted to trick me into transferring my domain to them under the guise of renewing it for another year (and pay $10 more a year for the privilege, incidentally). And here I thought VeriSign was trying to position itself as a trustworthy company. A trustworthy company wouldn't try crap like this.... but they did gawdarnit!! :evil: [/i]
WILL THE REAL DUMMY PLEASE STAND UP? AT&T fired President John Walter after nine months, saying he lacked intellectual leadership. He received a $26 million severance package. Perhaps it's not Walter who's lacking intelligence.
WITH A LITTLE HELP FROM OUR FRIENDS: Police in Oakland, California spent two hours attempting to subdue a gunman who had barricaded himself inside his home. After firing ten tear gas canisters, officers discovered that the man was standing beside them in the police line, shouting, "Please come out and give yourself up."
WHAT WAS PLAN B??? An Illinois man, pretending to have a gun, kidnaped a motorist and forced him to drive to two different automated teller machines, wherein the kidnapper proceeded to withdraw money from his own bank accounts.
THE GETAWAY! A man walked into a Topeka, Kansas Kwik Stop, and asked for all the money in the cash drawer. Apparently, the take was too small, so he tied up the store clerk and worked the counter himself for three hours until police showed up and grabbed him.
DID I SAY THAT??? Police in Los Angeles had good luck with a robbery suspect who just couldn't control himself during a lineup. When detectives asked each man in the lineup to repeat the words: "Give me all your money or I'll shoot," the man shouted, "That's not what I said!"
ARE WE COMMUNICATING?? A man spoke frantically into the phone, "My wife's pregnant and her contractions are only two minutes apart!". "Is this her first child?" the doctor asked. "No!" the man shouted, "This is her husband!"
NOT THE SHARPEST TOOL IN THE SHED!! In Modesto, California, Steven Richard King was arrested for trying to hold up a Bank of America branch without a weapon. King used a thumb and a finger to simulate a gun, but unfortunately, he failed to keep his hand in his pocket.(hellllllooooooo!)
THE GRAND FINALE (I LOVE THIS ONE!!) Last summer, down on Lake Isabella, located in the high desert, an hour east of Bakersfield, California, some folks, new to boating, were having a problem. No matter how hard they tried, they couldn't get their brand new 22 ft boat going. It was very sluggish in almost every maneouver, no matter how much power was applied. After about an hour of trying to make it go, they putted to a nearby marina, thinking someone there could tell them what was wrong. A thorough topside check revealed everything in perfect working condition. The engine ran fine, the out drive went up and down, and the propeller was the correct size and pitch. So, one of the marina guys jumped in the water to check underneath. He came up choking on water, he was laughing so hard. NOW REMEMBER..THIS IS TRUE . Under the boat, still strapped securely in place, was the trailer!!. :lol:
[b]Does any one else find it frightening the majority of these took place in California?? :roll: :lol: [/b]
It's Friday and I just cant wait for the weekend. I have a whole load of shopping to do with my girls, and we are off to the cinema this weekend too. Going to watch the new Jennifer Aniston and Ben Stiller movie...... should be a fun girlie weekend. Just need to get through the rest of the day first. Friday's are always so busy in my office, and my boss is having one of those episode's that only bosses seem to have. I'll have to get some work done now, cya. :)
